ehhhh

my back hurts like a freaking mother. it's one of those things that's a reminder i was a dancer once and now my joints have started freezing and telling me, "that's what you get for just stopping!" whatev. but ouch.

so, i've finally conviced my teacher that i'm capable of doing an externship for my MA course. long story short, she saw my arms... blah blah blah, old scars whatev. you know the drill. so, tomorrow i have to go to the site i'll be working at and get drug tested. fun stuff. and no, i have nothing to worry about. unless effexor comes up positive for crack, i'm good. so i should be starting next week. four months of full time work with no pay. love it.

life's been crazy, too much work, not enough money, and horrendous menstrual cramps. yesterday i spent the entire day in bed, crying in agony. it was the first time i've thrown up involuntarily in years. i don't usually get that sick, but fuck woman hood. i swear i should've given birth because at least i'd have something to show for the pain. but people that don't get those kind of cramps don't believe they exist. so fuck all of you who have a happy period. :D

summer is definately here in ca, however i have no car and haven't been to the beach since before utah. bastards! you'd think my friends would be happy to take me, but it's sort of like my utah friends that promised to take me sledding and never did. yeah thanks guys. but seriously, i need the beach. it's not a want, but a NEED.

well, i think i might be in a bad mood. maybe it has something to do with the fact that today's my day off and i was called in to work. i haven't said yes yet, but the part that makes me pissed is that i have nothing else to do so i'll probably end up going. so i think i'm going to go try to find something to do so i can decline. peace out hommies. i miss you way too much.